Remembrance

I remember when we laughed as one,
I remember when we met.

I can't seem to get past it,
the moments I can't forget.

Days go by and time goes on,
as it seems to do.

But all the time in the world,
won't lead me back to you.

-AEF

Expectations

Her expectations didn't quite hold up.

He was cold. 

He remains cold, to her, to life, to strangers, to friends, to experiences, and most importantly- to adventure.

The fantasy is crushed, crumbled, and yet, continuous.

She yearns for more, she needs to believe there is more.

Her ever-sustaining wishes and hopes carry her.

They carry her quietly and close over her heart.

They close over her heart like naïve and youthful dreams.

Dreams which blind and pull her further towards misguided expectations.

These sorts of expectations are no longer justifiable. 

Cheers to Them || Here

Sometimes, there aren't enough thanks given.
Sometimes, you forget the origins of it all, and what scarred the path to your current state of being.
Sometimes, a simple reflection and thanks is in order.
So here's to the absentee father, a mystical figure in an imaginary fog.
Here's to the entitled mother, a churner of the wheel behind all our darkest secrets.
Here's to the stranger, a bearer of the gift of random misery.
Here's to the best friend who lies, cheats, steals, mocks, destroys!
A big cheers is in order to such a friend- a figure who stalks our Happy Moments and slays them with a smile.
Here's to the boss, a face with tints of blue, roadmap veins in the forehead, and a self righteous snarl.
Here's to The One. Maybe The One who got away. The One who stayed. The One who left. The One who didn't have just One. The One who brought you down. The One who made a fool of you, an addict of you, a nonbeliever out of you.
Here's to The One, a sole driving source of all that fell apart, while being the source of what pulled it into place.
Yet sometimes, these faces, people, names, are all heroes.
A thanks is in order. A thanks!
They brought you Here. Here is a beginning. Here is a source of power, joy, and most importantly, self discovery.
Grasp hold of the Here.
-AEF

The Slightest Push

Insecurity spotting.
Eyes batting.
Now-- eyes dropping.
Lip licking.
Bravery spouting. Slowly. Slowly.
Words fluttering.
Dancing around the thoughts that are formed.
Passing between the truth, and what is easiest to speak out.
Stems twisting long amber strands of hair.
Your encouragement is given through a smile.
An ever so slight, carefully still, smile.

In the end, that was all the encouragement I needed.
That slight, careful smile.
It took me. Took hold of me.
I am indebted to that smile.

Truth emerging.
Secrets flowing.
Finally-- trust forming.
-AEF

Motionless in Motion

Thousands and thousands of miles to go.
You apply some pressure to gain speed while I beg you to slow.
My smile is missing, there is fog in my eyes,
My soul is worn on my face as you fail to emphasize.
Drenched in an invisible sweat, I sit very still,
You're a mad man with my heart and you race on for the thrill.
Summer is now autumn, a cold day with hard kisses of rain,
It is all the same to you, dear, there's only one thought in your brain.

You inhale. I exhale. We are motionless as we move.

-AEF

Bright

A chance encounter turned into forever, a gaze turned into love.
You drew near to me, pulled me in, and kissed me from above.
My heart is yours to cherish, my love is yours to forever keep,
And even when you are away, back into your arms will I always creep.
You gained my trust with kindness, you always are sincere,
You always guide me back to you while vanquishing my fear.

You are my baby darling, you are my joy and light,
And as I face our future, it is simply nothing but bright.

-AEF

Night Waltz

Shadows drip across the walls and my swaying is in vain,
Evening does not bring you near and my motions are all the same.
The quiet overpowers me and the silence pulls my hair,
I am dancing by myself tonight, and nightfall seems not to care.
It feels so long since your hand lead mine and pulled me into your chest,
Yet now as I yearn to twirl with you, my head cannot find that place to rest.
These evenings have lengthened tenfold, now that you are away,
My movements are so bitter now, as in vain I sway.

-AEF